Realisations

Sometimes after drifting in your thoughts you can come across a bit of a revelation. I have been looking at a lot of elements in my love life and realise how I seem to approach things differently to most of my previous partners. I have always tried to steer a relationship to benefit of my partner. Tried to do the best thing for her. I have always seen it is a two way street, you care and look after them and they do the same back. However this never seems to happen. I have though about this a great deal and realised that in all of my relationships I have been the emotional crutch and support that they have all needed and in the end, when the shit hits the fan, it has always been their happiness that is paramount to them not mine. Perhaps it is Monday and I am being a little bit down and bitter (although on a beautiful day like this I am asking myself why?). I don't want to have to be a selfish bastard and look after little old me, but sometimes I think this may be the best way forward to protect myself. I have noticed that all of the dealings that have happened recently with my ex have been on her terms and what makes her comfortable and happy, but without really worrying about me. Doom/Blondie - sorry dude I ignored your advice and I was mad wrong. I have decided that my relationship with my ex is going to be on my terms and what makes me happy.

Will this change the way I approach my future relationships? Probably not, after all as per my last post I am still an eternal optimist. At least I know how to deal with my current ones though!